Keyword: Avoidance Song: "Heart Up to My Head", by David Ashley
In the Rider-Waite-Smith version, there's a woman sitting in bed with her head in her hands. Nine swords are above her on the wall. It's clear from her posture that she's worrying a lot.
Because she's in a bed, she's pushing her worries under the covers. And now, they've woken her with a vengeance ready to "make her pay" for it.
The 9 of Swords is one of my favorite Tarot cards. Why? How could I love a Tarot card what shows a woman roused from her sleep because she's worrying?
It's weird, right? I know. But let me tell you something about the 9 of Swords.
The woman is in an endless loop of worrisome thoughts. They have control of her.
Yet, and this is the silver lining, she can take back control for herself! That's why I love this Tarot card. Because a solution exists for her.
These thoughts she suppressed found a way to get to her via her dreams. Suppression and avoidance is nothing more than slapping a band-aid over a wound. And now, the "wound" is leaking.
It's time for some mental ER treatment. First, she must banish her worrisome and negative thoughts.
How? By catching these thoughts as they happen mid-thought. The instant a negative thought pops into her head, she needs to ask it why it's there.
The conversation could go something like this, "Excuse me, but why are you bothering me now? What is your purpose here?"
The thought might respond, "You need to worry about how you'll pay your medical bills this month. How are you coing to do that?"
The woman might say, "If you don't have solution to this problem, you need to leave now. Go!"
And then, the thought dissipates into thin air. "Self-cleaning thought, leaves only the fresh scent of pine."
And she'll repeat this process for every thought. Stealing her sleep and waking her from her pleasant dreams is a crime that is punishable by death.
Why should she take such a harsh stance? Because these thoughts are making her life harder. She's miserable and worried all the time.
If her thoughts were another person saying, "You can't do it! Give up and go home to your sister's." She would kick them out faster than you could blink!
And that negative jerk would be out on the street. Gone forever never to return. And that person would have deserved it too!
Not all thoughts deserve to be in her head. Not all thoughts deserve to be in YOUR head.
Today, find the negative thoughts. Detect them as they happen.
Then, remove their reason for being there. They're not at all helpful. They're hurtful!
Finally, prevent them from reappearing ans taking control again. Replace them with helpful, positive and solution-based thoughts.
Redirect your mind to these helpful thoughts every time a negative thought pops up. Keep the focus on solving the reason for the worrisome thought.
Do this with compassion and lots of self-care. Nurture yourself.
Treat yourself and your positive thoughts as you would a friend who's coming to you for help. Shower yourself with praise and love!
About a week ago, I had my own 9 of Swords moment. I fell into a dark hole of thought.
I had convinced myself that being with my spouse was completely wrong for me. Why was I still with my love anyway?
In this dark time, I called my childhood friend. I called her because I had fond memories of her helping me through a traumatic childhood.
This friend later called me back. She tried to convince me that being with my spouse was not good for me. That this dark thought was a sign to move back to Missouri and leave my spouse.
She was the personification of my dark thoughts mirrored back at me. I realized this about 5 minutes after I called her.
I thought, "You're not the right person for this job." I thanked her for calling and vowed never to call her when I was in a dark spot again.
The thing is, I called her in a dark spot before about a year and half ago. And her advice was the same, "Leave your spouse."
Were I not clouded by past memories, I would've remembered not to call this "friend".
I should have called my other friend who is supportive and understanding of my situation. Next time that happens to me, I will!
Don't make the mistake I did. Don't allow fond memories of the past to override what you know about someone in the present. And pick the person to call while in that dark space with care.
Don't allow anyone to mirror your dark thoughts back at you. That person is NOT your friend! Find someone who won't do that, you owe it to yourself.
Take care of yourself, okay? Take a warm bubble bath!
StarzGnosis (KNOW-sis) is proud to be speaking about her mental health. It's hard for her to do, but she's glad to do it because it will help others. It might help you! If that's you, here's a hug!
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